In 2012 I started my Diploma of Photoimaging and it was amazing. We worked with film and I used a dark room for the first time. There were studio set ups available and I finally learned how to navigate photoshop. We spent a lot of the days walking around and taking photographs for our assignments. I loved the first year.
The second year went a little haywire, I fell off the proverbial wagon and this resulted in me failing two classes. I’ll avoid explaining anything unnecessary because a whole lot of drama happened around that time that I don’t want to recount.
The first class I failed, at the time, I blamed my teacher. Simply because I was so sure that he never even looked at my assignment. We’d handed them in the term before and when I came back he told me I’d never given it to him. I told him that I had and I would look for it in their office, of course I found it. So back I went and this time he told me that I needed to redo it. For any of you who don’t know in TAFE they will mark your assignment and give it back for you to fix if it isn’t satisfactory. This assignment wasn’t marked and he couldn’t tell me what was wrong with it. I was so angry about all this that I just thought screw it and never handed it in. I realise now that it was a silly move on my part.
Mistake number two was in the last term while I wasn’t attending classes. I had two major assignments and because I left everything until the last possible minute I only had time to finish one assignment properly. I decided that I would sacrifice my business assignment. If I’d been attending I probably would have completed my course as I was meant to.
On top of this I felt immense pressure to capture the perfect image and the enjoyment I’d had before was fading away. Worry took its place and suddenly I was working on these images that compared to others felt mediocre to get a grade that never stood out. I’d gone from loving photography with everything I had to not wanting to even pick up a camera.
I won’t say that those two years were wasted, I still learned a lot and some of the experience was incredible. If I could do it all again though I would knuckle down, finish my course and not be so petty! (Although maybe not because who knows if I would have what I do now.)
Now it has been two to three years since my course finished and I’m only just starting to gradually pick up my DSLR more. I’m still not sure what my niche should be but as they say the worlds my oyster and the sky the limit, hopefully one day I’ll figure it all out.
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